Pretty Disappointed

So at about 9pm last night I received the rough edit of the first video for the series, the video I was most worried about. I didnt feel like I was near 100% at the time of recording and I didn't feel like we had enough substance. It was a huge file so it took forever to download. So after 2 hours waiting, I finally was able to get to it. After about 25 minutes in, I came to the conclusion that it sucked.

Yep, sucked and I have no problem saying it. I didn't want it released and forwarded that along immediately. Aside from the fact that I was bumbling and my nervous uhm's were replaced with nervous basically's, which I must've said >50 times, it just lacked substance. It was boring. Chuck did a great job of soliciting questions or discussion, I did a horrible job of responding.

I immediately wanted EP 2 released as Ep 1, as I think 2 is a lot better. Being a live play vid, it allows for more concrete or direct discussion of specific hands in specific situations. I'm a bit frustrated about it as well. I'd really wanted a chance to preview it ahead of time because of these fears and if necessary a chance to correct/redo/whatever, I don't end up getting that chance and then it ends up turning out like it did. So really my biggest fears came true and my first release was way sub par, almost embarrassing.

So, to those that were really looking forward to it, I'm sorry.