Absolutely Nothing

Within an hour of playing now, I seriously want to vomit. How egotistical of me to play wraps with NFD's and NLD's fast, I should ofcourse realize I should be folding them immediately. What am I thinking when betting and raising the flop and/or turn with the best hand at the time? Especially if there is any kind of of draw out there. My favorite is the call with air and backdoor fush draw OTF. That means it will hit.

Lessons learned:
I don't win flips.
If I'm drawing against a set, I lose. If someone is drawing against my set, I lose.

If I have a K high flush, the A is GUARANTEED to be out there, regardless if it was 2 on the flop.

Example PLO8 hand, I have A2h4Kc. Flop comes 3510, 2 hearts, 1 club. Turn 9c. River 7c. Result 1/4. Or even better Jc. Result 0.

Now this didn't used to bother me, but when a dozen different variations of it occur daily and no action on the hands that do seem to hold up(typically involve checkdowned random pair), it becomes unbearable.

Granted, I'm not saying I'm playing perfect every hand. There are plenty of hands that I played poorly. I usually have no trouble overcoming those. Right now, it's not happening and it is incredibly dejecting. I went from the highest achievements in personal online success to right back where I was 3 months ago. I was playing great, making some great reads and decisions. Then slowly those great reads and decisions were seeing less and less reward. I'm down $1,100 bucks in a week and I don't see it ending.

For some, like someone like jongreenway, an $1,100 downswing is a cough, as he will win that back in two hours. OK, so he plays 1/2. Well make it $2200 for him and it's still the same concept. I don't play much NLHE and it takes me a really long time to reach that. I don't go on heaters. I don't have +$500 days. Hell, +$200 days for me are unusual playing O8. I have limited time to play, 700 hands in a night is alot for me.

I don't know what to do. I have so much going on right now with my business that my days are really tied up, so it's not like I'm dwelling on it all day. Actually, I've managed eneter each session with a pretty clear mind. I also don't like to take too many days off away from the game. When I return is when I end up playing my worst, as I'm still working of the rust.

I have 3 more days until I reach Gold in the Iron Man promo, which I've never done before. At this rate, I'll likely be broke before I make it. It's funny when thinking about the accomplishments of the month. Most points in a month and in a day, Gold Level, playing with Phil Ivey, biggest single table win, biggest pot. It's all been for absolutely fucking nothing. After this month, I'm no sure what I'm going to do. For once, I'd like to know what it feels like to feel some sense of extended reward. Gbucks don't help the bankroll.